Me: "Riley, thank you for being my good girl."
Riley: "Mama, thank YOU for being MY good girl!"
---------------------------------I'm coming to you again from 30,000 feet (somewhere over Nebraska - isn't my life glamorous??). I think that half my posts are written at cruising altitude so I guess, at least for that reason, it is beneficial to travel so much for work. It seems to be the only time I have to write blog posts. What did I do before in-flight Wi-Fi?
10 months (as of the 24th) and I'm still surviving. Sounds simple but if you have a child in Heaven, you understand why this is not a small statement.
My theme song for this month has been "If I Stand," by Rich Mullins. Here are a few things it says to me:
- There is so much more than what is tangible to me here on Earth. More than I could ever possibly comprehend or even dream about. (Isaiah 55:8-9)
- It is so easy to get caught up in the here and now. To allow myself to be influenced by what I have or don't have. To be shortsighted. To allow others influence me into how I should feel or not feel. The Truth: my only allegiance should be to God - He who has given me everything good. He is Peace.
- I am standing today. Praise the Lord.
- I am standing today only because of His love and grace that lifts me up. Likewise, if I am unable to stand tomorrow, He will carry me into the next day. Either way, I am fully dependent upon Him and his promises.
"For I know the plans I have for [Reese]," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper her and not to harm her, plans to give her hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
Five things I am grateful for today:
- 38 weeks with my littlest and all of the memories of her growing inside me
- The pictures I have of her, her lock of hair, her footprints, her ashes
- 10 months of honoring her and sharing my love for her with others
- Our friends and family who have walked along this journey with us and have been so patient and compassionate
- Hope.
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4 comments:
Beth, I am amazed on how your thoughts, feelings and words continue to inspire me with each post. Even though I am your number 1 fan, I am sure that others feel the same way after having read your blog. You bless me!
Hello to you at 30K feet, Sweetie! And thanks for very dear thoughts and a great song to lift my day! Something about music, especially, that can fill our everydayness with a touch of transcendence, a connection.
Have a safe trip!
Big love,
Dad
Oh a post script. Riley's comment to you does show that she is learning relationship
comments, I know her enough to know that she means what she is saying and not just repeating what you are saying to be cute (although she is enough of a showboat to have some of that there.) However, she truly is grateful at that moment that you are being "her good girl," because she is a born nurturer just like you are.
Beth, I'm so touched by your closeness to the Lord. I've been reading a book called 1,000 gifts. Have you read it? It is a challenge to live it the blessing that He gives and not to let anything take that away. He is the giver all of all good gifts and He can be trusted. Thanks for sharing your love of the Lord. Rose B.
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